Jennifer Lopez just let slip her 'dark' bisexual sex fantasy: JACQUELYNN POWERS lays bare the daddy issues behind it all

Jennifer Lopez has spent decades selling the world on the fantasy of love.

The fairytale weddings. The giant diamonds. The love songs. The belief that no matter how spectacularly things fall apart, romance is always worth another try.

And nobody has tried harder than JLo.

Four marriages. Six engagements. Numerous boyfriends. One very public reunion that still somehow crashed and burned.

Through it all Jenny from the Block has largely remained a locked box, but during a recent appearance on new co-star and rumored flame Brett Goldstein's podcast Films To Be Buried With, Lopez, 56, may have accidentally revealed more than she intended.

Asked by Goldstein to name 'a film you found arousing that you weren't sure you should,' Lopez didn't hesitate.

Quentin Tarantino's violent 1993 cult classic True Romance.

'I would have had sex with any one of them,' Lopez said of the cast, which played pimps, prostitutes, gangsters and drug dealers. 'Which says a lot about me… maybe like the dark side of me.'

For anyone unfamiliar with True Romance, this is not The Notebook. It is a movie about dangerous chemistry, obsession and the hopeless who mistake chaos for real connection.

Written by Tarantino and directed by Tony Scott, the film follows star-crossed lovers, desperate Clarence Worley (Christian Slater) and troubled call girl Alabama Whitman (Patricia Arquette), as their lives spiral into murder and mayhem.

Lopez highlighted a brutal scene between Arquette's Alabama and James Gandolfini's sadistic mobster Virgil, in which Vigil viciously beats Alabama before she sets him on fire with a lighter and a bottle of hairspray. Lopez seemed mesmerized by the sensuality beside the violence. '[Alabama] has a blown-up face for the rest of the movie, but she's still sexy. You still want to kind of kiss her on the lips.'

In the same interview, Lopez called the erotic 1986 thriller 9½ Weeks, starring Mickey Rourke and Kim Basinger, 'the sexiest movie' she had ever seen. The movie centers around a mysterious, emotionally manipulative Wall Street trader who seduces an art gallery employee into an all-consuming, psychologically charged relationship.

'[Basinger's character] knew that it was dark and no good and so mysterious but that's what made it sexy and good but also knew it was toxic… You want her to get out of it, but I didn't want her to get out of it. I loved every moment.'

Toxic, indeed.

The rapid-fire confessions seemed so out of character for one of the most disciplined, ruthlessly image-conscious women in entertainment. But could it be that she is sincerely drawn to emotionally messy love? A craving for validation? Daddy issues?

The answer, perhaps, begins in the Bronx.

Born Jennifer Lynn Lopez on July 24, 1969, to Puerto Rican parents Guadalupe 'Lupe' Rodríguez and David Lopez, the future-superstar grew up as the middle child between sisters Leslie and Lynda. Her parents remained married for 33 years before divorcing in 1999.

According to Lopez, something was always missing.

In her Amazon Prime documentary The Greatest Love Story Never Told, Lopez painted a surprisingly vulnerable picture of her childhood. She described her mother as 'a narcissistic, center-of-the-attention, life-of-the-party-type person,' while her father—working nights and sleeping during the day—was emotionally distant.

'I felt very ignored by my dad,' Lopez admitted. 'I didn't feel like I had enough of a connection with him.'

'When I was growing up, I was always looking for somebody to make me feel loved,' she divulged in the film.

Lopez also admitted that past relationships crossed troubling lines. 'I was never in a relationship where I got beat up, thank God,' Lopez said. 'But I've definitely been manhandled and a couple of other unsavory things. Rough. Disrespectful.'

Suddenly, her fascination with disturbing movie romances feels more revealing. Her search for love does seem to have been long and emotionally bruising.

Long before she became JLo, there was David Cruz, the Bronx high school sweetheart. They began dating when she was just 15 years old. The relationship lasted nearly a decade.

Fresh off the success of Selena, Lopez married Cuban waiter Ojani Noa in 1997. It lasted less than a year.

Next was Sean Combs. The pair became one of entertainment's hottest couples, dazzling red carpets and dominating nightlife with a glamorous excess that felt intoxicating. But everything seemed to change in December 1999. While partying at Club New York in Manhattan, gunfire erupted inside the venue, wounding three people.

Lopez and Combs fled the scene before being arrested after a firearm was found in their vehicle. Lopez was never charged, but Combs stood trial on weapons possession and bribery charges. He was acquitted but his protégé Jamal 'Shyne' Barrow was convicted of reckless endangerment and assault. The incident cast a shadow over the relationship. Lopez's mother reportedly disliked Combs and they broke up.

Another whirlwind romance led to a second marriage in 2001 to backup-dancer Cris Judd. Less than two years later, they split. Judd blamed the pressure of his wife's fame.

Then came Bennifer… 1.0. The chemistry felt magnetic to fans. Their engagement dominated headlines. The frenzy surrounding them bordered on hysteria, until the lavish wedding was postponed just days before the date.

In Marc Anthony, Lopez appeared to finally find something deeper: familiarity and family. The longtime friends married in 2004 and eventually welcomed twins Max and Emme, transforming Lopez from bombshell into devoted mother. For a time, Anthony seemed to offer something she had long chased: stability.

Their marriage lasted a decade, Lopez's longest adult relationship. When the pair split in 2011, it marked the end of what many assumed was Lopez's forever chapter, but more men followed.

Dancer Casper Smart. A rumored fling with Drake. A perfect-on-paper engagement to Alex Rodriquez, broken off amid gossip of infidelity on his part. And, in perhaps Hollywood's most irresistible plot twist, Bennifer 2.0.

Nearly two decades after their painful split, they quickly got married, blended their families and tried again.

Surely this time the ending would be different. Except it wasn't. And Lopez found herself divorced—again.

Today, Jennifer Lopez is seemingly facing her loneliest stretch yet. Max and Emme are 18 and going off to college.

For the first time in nearly two decades, she is preparing an empty nest. No husband. No fiancé. No boyfriend. No children.

That may make one… contemplative.

Perhaps the biggest surprise from Lopez's recent interview with Goldstein had nothing to do with toxic love at all. It pointed to her relationship with her father.

During Christmas a few years ago, amid her divorce from Affleck and while recovering from the flu, Lopez said she sat down with her dad to watch the Brazilian drama I'm Still Here.

As the film ended, she unexpectedly broke down crying, overwhelmed, she said, by thoughts about motherhood, childhood and the complicated relationship she had long carried with him.

Trying to hide tears streaming down her face, Lopez said her father turned toward her. 'Oh baby, what's wrong?'

'I love you,' he told her. 'I always loved you.'

'It healed a part of me,' Lopez admitted, saying, quite cryptical, that the moment helped her move on from 'those type of relationships.'

Hopefully, Hollywood's ultimate hopeless romantic is finally done confusing chaos with love.